jammin'.

I didn't anticipate the past few days to be so unbelievably relaxed and easygoing. I've been getting my work done yet enjoying myself thoroughly. Mike and I have been seeing each other more or less every day and it's been interesting, to say the least. I also heard from Nick again the other day, but I politely rejected his offer to play beer pong and I think he got the point that I didn't want to see him again. Ever.

I've been reflecting on what/how I've been going about my business the past couple of days, and it's really hit me that for now, being single definitely beats a relationship. I can't speak for everyone when I say this but, it's so liberating to be able to wake up, start your day as you please, and pretty much plan out what you'd like to do based on you. I know it sounds selfish, but after 7 years of making plans around him, it's nice to have time to indulge myself in the things I do or don't want to do.

On Monday afternoon I woke up and decided to take my camera to the beach. I found a good spot on the rocks and took some amazing photographs of a surfing competition that luckily was taking place not too far from shore. I had nothing else to do that day, and I stayed as long as I wanted and took in the cool, salty ocean air. When I wasn't shooting away, I was certainly enjoying that particular spot as a great place to think and reflect.

I'll admit I think about X more often than before. Perhaps it has really just only settled in that we're better apart, and that this breakup is for good (at least, for the near future). Either way, I'm hoping that he too is beginning to realize the positive side of going our separate ways. I know he's still hurting; I have a feeling a small part of him always will. But I hope in the end that he will be truly happy, whether it be alone or with someone else who will give him the love I know he deserves.